Oct 4, 2013 @ 4pm - I didn't sleep last night. I laid awake in my bed for hours, just analyzing life. I usually go to sleep around 2am. But last night I couldn't seem to fall asleep. By 4am I decided to get out of bed and watch some TV to let my thoughts settle. My mind kept running as I sat on the couch and started channel surfing. I watched the sun rise, I listened to the birds start chirping, and my girlfriend got up to go to work. Still no sleep, my mind was racing. The morning television shows started playing into the daytime programming and by 4pm I still hadn't slept. I was reflecting on my whole life and it was starting to drain me. Discussing with myself about who I was, what I had done in the past, what I was going to do in the future, how I was going to make my mark on the world, I began to question my purpose. I realized I was not where I wanted to be in life, I needed guidance!!

    I usually look at myself as being a good son, friend, student, mentor, role model, artist, entrepreneur, boyfriend, man, grandson etc. But this day I felt as if I was playing roles for everybody. I'm one person to my family, another to my professional circle, another to my art friends, and another to my music friends. At that very moment, I imagined the room I was sitting in full of different versions of Myself. I didn't want to be any of those people any more. I felt the efforts I put behind being each person was taking away from me being who I truly NEEDED to be. I needed to find out who that was. I was searching for the ANSWER.

    I remember it like it was yesterday. While reflecting on my life I realized I was ready to find a change, I began to ask for help. I closed my eyes and asked, "Please, I know you're there, I'm confused and hurting, I need a sign to point me in the right direction. Please guide me. I don't want to be these people everybody sees me as. I'm ready to be MYSELF and find my TRUE PURPOSE."

    At that second an overwhelming sensation came over my body, a presence that I can only explain as Amazing and Miraculous. It first started with a warm sensation beginning from my toes and when it reached my head, it led to a comforting feeling of a warm bath, it was great. I began to hear a huge voice that spoke no words, and at the same time the voice sounded like the whole world could hear it, it stood out from the normal clutter of consciousness. "Get up from the couch. Go to the bathroom and look at yourself in the mirror." Trusting the voice, I got up and went to the bathroom.

    I remember walking to the bathroom, looking at the towel on the door, glancing over to the trash can with the tissue in it. I approached the mirror and start to look at myself in the eyes. As I lock eyes with MYSELF, immediately the voice comes back, "What do you see?" I start answering consciously, "I see a man, a good person, an up and coming business man, a good son, a good grandson, a leader, a creative person, a mentor, someone that wants to inspire the world." The voice said, "No, you are wrong!!" I quickly felt the correct answer enter my head, "I see Myself!"